Reboot =]

I was having a tricky time with Ana and my boyfriend...
Ana commands eat less and the boyfriend is the other, However, i don't care about my curves, and I realised that all the rib definition i had been gaining was going! so I will eat only in front of him, and otherwise not at all. and Mia is always around if i need her?

So yesterday averaged at about 600 cal? Not good enough! I did spend ALL day walking around brighton in the freezing cold though, so i hope that accounts for something, but i'm not subtracting anything as it'll make me feel like i've eaten less when i haven't because i'm fat...

Staying at home ill today, means i can avoid breakfast, probably avoid lunch ( have fruit if i cant) and then only nibble on dinner, depending on my boyfriend!

I won't fail this time...

xxx

Tuesday 2nd February - AH FUCK IT

FUUUCK... EPIC BINGEING TT_TT!!!! I ate so many calories today because of my bingeing!! I feel so awful because i did... I can do lots of exercise now though i guess... It wont fix it all, and if i try not to eat anything until diner tomorrow i should feel a little better about myself?

Its my brothers birthday tomorrow so i hope my resolve holds tomorrow... I cant binge again, I will feel so bad... I'm already fat... And i cant deal with it any more TT__TT